Please Get Me Home

Sitting on a soft cushion in a long journey
Staring at a woman hugging her little sleepy-head
My heart is not comfy enough
Lying against the icy window in the rain
Glancing at the sceneries of wet green flashing in the other way
Trying very hard to not miss any of the signboard
Hoping to see familiar views of my own
With my footprints
And the laughters I missed

I’m on my way
Holding tears and hopes
To get back into my warm home
To my olden days
Keep head count of the decreasing miles
But it seems far although its near
Please get me home

Listening to my decorated iPod
Repeating “Home”
For the first time ever
Understanding the story behind those words
Cheeks are a bit of wet
Searching my pack of pulps
But what I found
Was my torn pieces of family photo in 80’s
Risen my guilt of disappointing them

Oh I’m on my way
To my olden days
Keep head count of the decreasing miles
Holding tears and hopes
To get back into my warm home
But it seems far although its near
Please get me home

Keeping my fingers cross
Holding my both grown hands tightly
With prays swaying in my mind
A fear of stuck in horrible tragic
That will steal me away without saying “Sorry”
Without gettin’ one of the hell slap from my loved ones
Due to my disgrace to them
Would I make it…..
Can I be excused to make it?????

I’m on my way
To my olden days
Keep head count of the decreasing miles
Holding tears and hopes
To get back into my warm home
But it seems far although its near
Please get me home

OH OH…..
I’m on my way
To my olden days
Keep head count of the decreasing miles
Holding tears and hopes
To get back into my warm home
But it seems far although its near
Please get me home

Please get me home

God
Please…..Please…….

Please get me home……
Oh……..

I’m sorry



This is my first written song. I am too bored on my journey to KL...So I use one hour of my trip to think of these lines of words....Those OHs might seem to be annoying, but to create the sense of song, I add them to the song.......The English I used are all simple, I'm working hard to learn more and update my level.....HAHAHA...I would like comments from you all....I love to write song, but sometimes I lazy to type them out.......It will be my dream come true if I have the chance to work with someone to make this a real song..Seems like a big dream, but I'm really looking forward to it....I will be posting some of my songs.....I am working hard on it..This is my newest hobby to fill up my spare time.....Thanks all and do comment....Personally or openly I don't mind....

Modern Love, No More Romeo and Juliet......

Being belonged to a loving, romantic relationship, will be every youth's fantasy, or even major goal of life for some people. I'm one of the typical teen, so, welcome to the group. Loving relationship, the sacred bond between a boy and a girl, is the most miracle and amazing creation of the Almighty, from the first man and woman on Earth- Adam and Eve, to symbolise the expansion of population from the unity of a man and a woman through their unconditional acceptance, moreover, to emphasise on the need of tolerance between a man and a woman, without competition of who is better or worse.

From what I've encountered these years, youths are getting blinded by desperation or stimulation from other friends. For example, A and B are close friends. One day, A called B and said: ' Dei A, I got a girl la....Her name is XXX....she is hot, sexy and loving...Omg!! i'm lucky dei!! just went out for Ugly Truth with her....blah blah blah!!! ' Responders, if you are B, how would you feel??? Don't tell me you feel happy for him.Yeah!! That will be the mask you wear to forbid your envy and jealousy. Ok, you might feel happy and congrats him upon his success in conquering a romance. But, deep inside your inner self, as a normal human being, you will feel unhappy and disappointed on your potential.

Another case will be due to desperation. Desperate is the demon we should avoid when it comes to love. If we desperate, we will tend to find who ever beside us and make him or her as our date, companion. People, will this relationship go on?? No true love from either side, how to feel the love?? Due to these "magnets of destructions", we fail to sustain a true relationship.

In the olden days, first love will be the eternal love, leading to build a happy married life. But nowadays, those fairytales of " live happily ever after" is no more heard. Nowadays, trend of getting divorce is becoming vigorous, as one of the popular "hobby" in modern society. Some have even heard of news husband murdering wife, wife runaway with another guy. Having affairS is not a big deal now. We might came across with some online articles about confession of a man upon his divorce, saying: " She is not good in bed.." What kind of answer is that?? Even teenagers, I heard some of them had boyfriends or girlfriends just to taste the experience of having clandestine relationships. Does true love means the interaction between bodies?? That's not love, there is another word to describe that.

Ok...Lets forget about stories of Adam and Eve. One huge question:"Are most modern marriages last long....." Let me give my opinion. My answer will be: " Some lasts....but most in riot....but some ends tragically.." Nowadays, some countries have permitted gay and lesbian marriages legally( I'm not into labelling but due to the situation, I have to use it to differentiate....sorry)..but some countries still reluctant to do so...like.......I leave the answer to you all..... Is these marriages are disgrace to the purity of sacred love and marriages?? Hell no!! I would say those marriages are the most purified and long-lastig marriage because the understand each others position, background, interest and moreover, love each other....Most important, the love they have that make them dare to face th world as themselves, without hiding under the shadows of the community!! Salute you all!!! As straight marriages, tends to find other mates when our mate can't fulfill our need....Marriage is not a game, its a sort of destiny that we have to meet.....We find som many people to love, but only one suits....Arrage wedding and by the blessings of the angles, God and human, the married life of the couple has begin...But, due to certain ego on who is powerful or suddenly found someone who is better, the bond breaks apart!!! Love is blind...We all love to emphasise it theoritically but practically, we hate the phrase. Why?? Because we always kept imagining the wedding photos, the future gatherings and etc.....Seen someone fat, gone case.....Someone had a scar on the face...out!!! But, reality, its the heart and leadership is going to build a nice life pathway till the end.

Teens, just imagined how your future marriage will be, is it based on the love of judging the appearance or the content of it. " Don't judge a book from its cover " . If you find someone has attractive appearance, don't just blindly get into the action to get him or her. Understand first, after knowing each other well then propose. I know most of the people will feel boring and lengthy, but for the sake of being a part of long-term romantic connection, this is the way. I know this is hard, but lets try it out!! Most important thing, don't be shy and don't ever ask someone to help you to get closer to the person you had a crush on, even if your best friend, because its just like asking someone to help you retrieve the prize money from your wining lottery ticket!!! Think wise as a brilliant teen to find your "Romeo and Juliet" !!!

P.S Love is blind!!! ( I think you guys understand......)

Le Memoria

Just now, I was rushing up my NOC( Non-objection Certificate) with Vick to send in to Putrajaya tomorrow. Suddenly, I felt something awkward, smell something missing....I turn around, and I aw my dad watching me filling up the form. I saw through his eyes, a bit wet....But what I saw, was satisfaction, proud, joy and of course, love and sadness.... I realise, I'm growing up!!

I still remember what my father told me... He said I weighed only 2.5kg when I was born( which is not good)...He said I'm cute, my skin was soft and fair....He said my fingers always hold on to his... From that day onwards, I was holding his hands until today.... He hold me pass through all my hard time and glorious moments. He is the only human that accompanies me in all my award ceremonies, performances and competitions. He said when I was small, i used to scared of anything...I will ran to him, hug him tightly and I will fell asleep...haha!! Now, seeing me attending interviews, filling up university admission forms, driving big cars, handling house chores, preparing for my future...He is amazed, touched and relieved of good rewards for his tiredness. ( Omg..I almost cried..)

Daddy, you taught me how to cope with my problems, until now everyone wondering why I can handle big thng with a smile....Thanks to you pa!!! Time flies.....I wana go back, hold your hands again, ride merry-go-round with you again, cry for toys again, wana you to cane me again........ Pa....You can count on me!! I will never let you down.....i want you to be with me for the rest of my life, seeing me succeeding in my life..I promise I will become a skillful and professional specialist!!!

I don't have enough time...In one month time, my sister is leaving to chase her dream..... I am preparing myself for her send-off....I don't know whether I can take it coolly or not.....SHIT!!! Think back those time we toghether, laugh, cry, fight, hug, perform, play, compete.......T.T!!!!

....... Can't continue!! sorry guys!!!....